Sometimes Reagan gets really sad because she doesn't have Grandparents to dote over her. It makes me sad as well...but what can I do? Perhaps run an ad in Craigslist..."Seeking doting Grandparents for awesome kid"!? That seems terribly dangerous in today's day and age! We have to learn to just accept that our family is small and we must support eachother the best we can.
I have been struggling recently...For whatever reason I haven't received any child support in over two years...with the exception of a week here and there...NOTHING! It is growing more and more difficult for me to keep up.
Reagan is a growing child and soon she will be an adult...in the blink of an eye! I need to make these years matter to help mold her into an AWESOME adult! She has been taking dance for 4 years now and we really want to continue...and if I can raise the money I can make it so she does dance 4 times a week and is part of the company! That will be awesome and Reagan's heart is set on it. Over the summer she can begin pre-pointe. How exciting! I so don't want to say no...she has such a natural ability for dance. Ugh!
She has been playing clarinet for two years now. I was able to work out a deal for the Clarinet with a friend. I am painting their kitchen cabinets (frame, drawers and doors) in exchange. I am hoping to finish the kitchen this week(finally). She gets her lessons at school. Now Reagan wants to take lessons during the summer and add Saxophone.
Reagan has also shown a natural ability to swim and would like to perhaps join a swim team in the future. To prepare I have her taking swim lessons at the Y.We will see...she has the body and the strength. The swimming is also a great way to strengthen her core for dancing..♥
I am really trying to fulfill this child's desires. I feel they are perfectly reasonable.
I believe with my entire being that as a single parent absent the support of a family that I need to keep this child active. I don't feel that my situation is any different than other single mothers in that my child can get lost in the shuffle if I don't keep her mind and body busy.
Last night Reagan's 5th grade band performed their spring concert. It was wonderful!
Another dance performance is coming up...
Reagan is keeping up w/ it and I am so proud!
Life is not always easy...as a matter of fact it is quite hard...but oh so rewarding especially when my child lets me see that all my hard work is paying off. I don't know...
This is the hand we have been dealt...I think we are playing it alright considering.
|Rea with some of her girlfriends♥|
I just wanted to take a moment and acknowledge the grooviness I have been working so hard for. I was never taught to be a mother or even a parent... this whole gig is a guessing game. I do so hope that all that I am doing will reflect in her foreverhood. She is the light of my life...everything I do I do for her!